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A better mousetrap?

I just killed my first mouse. I’ve caught mice before, in traps, mice that either died before I found them trapped or soon after I had removed them from my home.

Let me explain, we have mice in our apartment. Sadly, our landlord has made it abundantly clear that he does not care about this, or about maintaining the house we live in at all. Tomorrow, our downstairs neighbors are moving out. They told my wife that the landlords inaction on the mice problem was a main driver of their decision to live elsewhere.

So, knowing any solution would have to come from my efforts alone, I went to the store to buy mousetraps. I have had some significant issues with hand pain in the last year. As a result, I am very protective of my fingers and I didn’t want to use the traditional snap traps out of fear of one being triggered accidentally while I was setting it and catching one or more of my fingers.

Then there is this article I read recently about the American bald eagle. The American bald eagle is a true conservation success story. In 1963, there were only 417 know nesting pairs in the United States, down from an estimated population of between 300,000 and 500,000 in the early 18th century. With enhanced legal protection under the Endangered Species act, and especially as a result of the total bad put in place on the pesticide DDT in 1972, the US bald eagle population is once again estimated at over 300,000.

Unfortunately, not all of the bald eagle news is so rosy. Although no longer endangered, a recent survey of bald eagles in the United States found over 90% to have rodent poison in their systems.

Knowing this fact about bald eagles had me convinced not to consider using poison to solve my mouse problem. The remaining solution that I arrived at was glue traps. I had once previously used a glue trap and caught a mouse with it. That time I was so freaked out by the struggling and incessantly squeaking mouse I had in my glue trap that, in a panic, I simply scooped up the mouse and the trap into a trash bag, wrapped that in another trash bag and deposited the whole bundle in the trash bin outside our house. Cruel, I know, but as I said, I panicked.

This time, as I laid out my glue traps, I was determined to handle things better. So, an hour ago, when I first heard the telltale squeaks and then saw the glue trapped mouse with my own eyes, I did remain calm. This time there was also a new complication, the trapped mouse had managed to drag itself and the glue trap far enough across the floor to the point that half of its body was now lying over an extension cord, which was also glued to the trap.

I knew the first thing I had to do was kill the mouse. I got a large old volume from one of our many bookshelves, a book I would be willing to part with. In this case, I chose one titled “Emerson, Poet and Thinker” that I inherited from my parents. It was a hardcover book, large and heavy. I used it to swiftly club the little mouse to death, ending its suffering and my discomfort at its cries.

Then, realizing that there was no easy way to pry the extension cord from under the mouse corpse and that I already had a replacement, I put mouse, cord and trap into a trash bag as before, but this time silent, and took them out to the trash.

I am actually fairly certain that this is the first time I have ever killed a mammal with my own hands. I can’t say I am proud, but I am a certainly relieved that I reacted without so much panic this time.

We are unable to have a cat in this apartment, so I am left to wonder about a better mousetrap.

The Circle of Life

Every Saturday and many Sundays, my wife and I head to the nearby town of Lexinton, Massachusetts where we have the amazing good fortune to be friends with some suburban goat herders. When the weather allows it, and in every season, we accompany the goats and their human companions to the pasture to forage and to graze. Because in my mental picture of goats in pasture there should be music, I bring my flute and I play to them.

Yesterday, the weather was lovely but it had rained a lot overnight and the pasture was a mix of melting snow and mud, not much fun for goats or humans. Anticipating this the day before (Saturday), our friends invited us to visit the goats in their backyard barnyard. Meanwhile, a mile or so away another friend who also keeps goats was watching over one in the last stage of pregnancy and last night she gave birth to two beautiful and healthy baby goats, a boy who is all white and girl who is black and white.

Goats and Me, Mother Goat and Babies, Baby Goats!!!

Ella’s Song

Tonight I rediscovered on old favorite, almost like an old friend. The song Ella’s Song by the group Sweet Honey In The Rock was a rock I leaned on for support, climbed up on for perspective and carried inside as a source of strength for several years in the late 80s. It is one of the most beautiful and inspiring songs I know and finding it again online, after so many years without hearing it, made me very happy.

Ella’s Song

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

Until the killing of black men, black mothers’ sons
Is as important as the killing of white men, white mothers’ sons

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

That which touches me most is that I had a chance to work with people
Passing on to others that which was passed on to me

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

To me young people come first, they have the courage where we fail
And if I can but shed some light as they carry us through the gale

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

The older I get the better I know that the secret of my going on
Is when the reins are in the hands of the young, who dare to run against the storm

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

Not needing to clutch for power, not needing the light just to shine on me
I need to be one in the number as we stand against tyranny

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

Struggling myself don’t mean a whole lot, I’ve come to realize
That teaching others to stand up and fight is the only way my struggle survives

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

I’m a woman who speaks in a voice and I must be heard
At times I can be quite difficult, I’ll bow to no man’s word

We who believe in freedom cannot rest
We who believe in freedom cannot rest until it comes

Lyrics and music by Bernice Johnson Reagon
Sung by Sweet Honey in the Rock

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tG1dNJh2rw

Immanent Love and Transcendent Reality

I was searching the internet somewhat randomly, drifting in the way the Situationists liked to drift aimlessly about their Paris, open to whatever might arise. At some point, I got onto a thread about immanence and transcendence and happened upon this quote and the explanation that follows:

“God Siva is Immanent Love and Transcendent Reality.” – Gurudeva Sivaya Subramuniyaswami

Rishi Thondunathan

June 17, 2020  · “God Siva is Immanent Love and Transcendent Reality.” That is our affirmation in English. It summarizes the beliefs and doctrines of the Saivite Hindu religion. Immanent means “present throughout.” Transcendent means “beyond.” By repeating this affirmation, we assert that God is both manifest and unmanifest. He is present throughout the world and He also transcends it. He is personal Divine Love and impersonal Reality. We repeat “God Siva is Immanent Love and Transcendent Reality” when going to sleep and again while awakening. This statement brings us close to Siva and prepares us for the day. In Tamil it is Anbe Siva mayam, Satyame Parasivam. In the Sanskrit language it is Premaiva Sivamaya, Satyam eva Parasivah. In French it is Dieu Siva est Amour Omniprésent et Réalité Transcendante.
We can use it like a mantra and recite it 108 times. We can write it down 108 or 1,008 times as a sadhana. Repeating this affirmation, we impress our mind with the ultimate truths of our religion sothat these memories give us strength in times of distress, worldliness or anxiety. It reminds us that God’s immanent love protects and guides us. Through the day, it lifts our mind into useful thoughts and keeps us from harm’s way. Reciting this affirmation draws us into Siva consciousness. Other religions also have affirmations of faith. For example, Christians have the Apostle’s Creed and Muslims have the Shahada. Followers treasure their affirmations, repeating them often individually or as a group. (path to Siva)

I am what I am

From “My Autobiography” by Charle Chaplin, 1964

Charlie Chaplin’s quote about individuality, first published a year before I was born, is a helpful reminder when I am feeling claustrophobic, cramped or constrained, as has been the case more frequently in the wake of Covid-19. Yesterday, I listened as two friends talked at length about self-acceptance. Today, I feel that before I can either accept or reject myself, I need do some more remembering. I need to remember who I am, as an individual. I need to look in the mirror.